I don’t know. I feel alone, unwanted. I’m on the verge of completing my thesis.
Maybe I’m scared, afraid to move on. I’m supposed to move on. The feeling is that I’d like to still feel welcome here. But maybe I’ve been here too long.
I’d be less afraid if I knew I’d be welcomed in another place. I’d happily relocate. But nothing yet, there’s no prospect yet.
What to do when you feel like you’re about to be kicked out and have not found another place?
It’s not so easy escaping from myself. All this time, and I’m still as alone as ever.